"...There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears." ~Philippians 1:6 [the msg]
Pursuing becoming a musician is a lovely journey to be on,... even tho it's filled with uncertainty. It is a journey that has no clear path, nor does it have a guarantee of success, but I press on, full of hope.
I have felt the discouragement that has made me question what I am doing, and in the same night have heard God's voice so clearly to keep going. I have felt the high of opening for Mark Schultz, one of my favorite artists. I have felt the frustration while crumpling up paper after paper when writing some unsuccessful songs. I have felt the unbelievable joy of feeling God's words just flow thru me into a song. Truth is, He always works in the high and the low moments to teach, and help me grow.
Quite often, someone will ask me about my CD... What will I do after I'm done recording? Who will be selling it? Will I be touring? What's next? The truth is: I have no clue! But you know what?! It doesn't scare me! (ok, to be totally truthful, I totally have my freak-out moments. But when I know the Truth, the fear leaves.) Somehow God has so clearly provided. He has provided an amazing music producer for me. Somehow God has provided these songs for me to sing. Somehow He has given me many opportunities to share my heart for Him. He has even blessed me with amazing musicians to sing with and lead with. He is so faithful, and I know that He will guide me. I don't always need it to be perfectly clear. Sometimes, clarity only make me feel like I have control of my life. I love how He is using the lack of a clear path to keep me dependent on Him.
I am certain that there will be more discouraging moments, more frustrating writing sessions, etc. But my hope is always in the Lord, and that there will be many more songs, opportunities, and unbreakable smiles that come straight from God's work. It's all part of the web He's weaving. I'm loving it.
Lord, Your will be done. Please have your way, and forgive my doubt. You are good, and I am nothing without You.
One day at a time,